09 August 2008

An unsespected resurection


Life is really funny. Just when I thought that I got a hold of my existence and of the life itself, it pulled me back to reality. reminding me that the control I am bragging about is only an illusion.

I thought I had made it, I took the turn that will change it all. Make it all go away. I though that i had forgotten what was...that I was over it...But, oh! How shocking it was to realise that all the memories I had "buried" and moaned over are still alive. waiting behind the curtain for the...I was going to say the perfect moment, but it was not. How can it be more perfect than the birth of my child? How can it take me away from my family? from enjoying my new baby.

Despite it all, I have to admit that I am glad to see him again but I cannot stop thinking...I wonder why? Why did you come back, resurface now? And how did I forget about the heartache?

Is it a sign that times are about to change? Is it you who found me or is it me, who found whom? Oh, well! We will see...Times will tell.

3 comments:

Passion d'écrire said...

Je découvre ton blog ou tu écris depuis 2005.
Bravo !
J'ai cliqué sur des titres en français en premier ! Hé non c'était en anglais !
J'ai lu ton dernier post.
La photo est bien choisie, c'est un cri.
Je ne sais pas pourquoi, mais j'ai l'impression que ce cri est plus le tien que celui de ton fils.
La vie est bien curieuse soumiaz.
Bon courage et Bonne continuation.

Anonymous said...

hey Momma Mia

Your child is beautiful. We haven't spoken for a while. I love you and always will. Life is indeed and interesting idea.

NM

soumiaz said...

@Passion d'écrire, n'est ce pas? bien curieuse!! Mais comme dit Edith, je ne regrette rien :)

@ Momma Mia,
Thank you Nanna (that is how I will teach him to call you). I miss you. How is everything and how are you? Any updates, I need a pics of you, to see if you changed ;)